On Dec 17, 2006 I graduated from Cleveland State University and it was the most unbelievable day. A couple of days before commencement I was sick of everyone telling me “I’m proud of you” or “You did it”. It felt like no one had faith in me and believed I could never graduate from college. When it was time to walk into the auditorium I wanted to cry. As I was walking, it finally hit me that this was my accomplishment and no one else’s. I was not walking into this room for anyone but myself and it felt good. I’ll admit, the ceremony was boring, and all I was doing was text messaging people the entire time. This was a moment that I earned; it took me five years to get where I’m today and it was my day. Another chapter of my life is completed. I wonder what is next?

Here’s a guide to a buying a vibrator

Do’s

• Beginners should have a classic vibrator, one that is smaller than the average penis size (about 5in. long and 1.5 in diameter). Think of it this way: a little smaller than your boyfriends dick (if you have a one)
• Make it personal, pick your favorite color. This way it won’t see, as uncomfortable.
• Buy a magic bullet!!! Clitoral simulation is key; sometimes you’re not in the mood for penetration.
• Buy a vibrator to accommodate you. If you get to used to a smaller size, buy something a little bigger.
• Buy cleaner that’s sold at the store.
• If you’re confused, ask a friend, sorority sister, or someone who works in the store.
• Buy a waterproof vibrator. Sometimes it’s good to have fun in the shower or bathtub (we all need our personal time).
• After some experience, my recommendation for an “everyday” vibrator is the Rabbit (or Beaver, Dolphin, Lion, Panda; the animals are different but they all work the same way). It provides excellent penetration and clitoral stimulation and is great for a good, quick orgasm.
• Find a good place to keep them, especially if you don’t live alone (read my earlier post about that mess)

Don’ts

• Buy strap-on vibrator. They move, are uncomfortable, and if you need one to use for sex, there’s something wrong.
• Use scented soaps, purell, or rubbing alcohol to clean your vibrator. Theses will likely lead to yeast infections.
• Buy anything you have to attach to your finger (or any other body parts). These are messy; they typically don’t stay in place, and usually don’t work.
• Let your boyfriend be intimidated by them. Adding them to your sex life can be fun.

Tonight is the first night of Hanukkah, last year at this time I would’ve been excited, this year I’m not. You see, last year I tried to convert to Judaism from Christianity so I celebrated all the Jewish holidays and went to temple. Right now, I have no clue what I am or what I want to be. I’m so confused. It feels like I could never be what I want to be. I could never be accepted as a Jew because I was not born Jewish. My mother will never accept it because she is an old Polish Catholic and would never welcome this change. It also doesn’t help that I love someone who is Greek Orthodox and if I ever married him I would have to be Orthodox. I could never be the religion that I would want to be.

If you ever want to read something that will make you laugh, read this article on the BBC website about Indian men and condoms. A British reporter wrote an article about how average size condoms are too big for the men of India. That’s right the average size condoms are too big. I wounder whether Trojans are going to make extra small condoms. After reading this article I will never complain that magnums are too big. I feel so bad for the women of India for their misfortune. No wonder the KamaSutra was made so that the woman could feel something. So sorry for all the Indian women in the world and all the women that have ever had sex with an Indian man. It know makes sense on why there are not that many Indians that are in porn. Personally, I have no opinion on this matter because I have never had sex with an Indian. So if anyone has any incite on this matter let me know. If anyone is offended to bad I didn’t write the article the BBC did.

This Sunday, December 17, 2006, I will be graduating from Cleveland State University with a Bacholors in Psychology and I could not be happier. I have been waiting for this day ever since the day I started college back in 2002.
YEAH ME!!!
I DID IT!!!

On Sunday, Dec 3, 2006, I told the girls of that I was not returning next semester. This was one of the hardest and, at the same time, one of the easiest decisions I’ve ever had to make. It was something I’ve been thinking about for years. I just simply had to make the choose of what was more important the sorority or my health.  After my hospitalization it was not a difficult decision.  I stayed in the organization this long because of all the people I was close too and the hoped that everything would get better. The only thing that I’ll miss from that organization is the people and connections that I made with them. It was hard telling all my true friends that I was leaving. It was hard watching a look of confusion pass among their faces. I was the voice of reason and the voice of all the people that were constantly walked on. To all these sisters: I will miss you, but true friends will never die. I don’t consider myself a quitter but, I just hit my breaking point.

At the age of 18 I lost my virginity and I have only been with two partners, including my current boyfriend. However, I consider myself to be the most educated person of sex for my age. I’m not a slut but, for some reason I know almost everything about sex. When ever anyone has any questions about positions, places, or even terms, they always come to me. Out of the entire realm of sex, my specialty is toys; I’ve owned and retired so many that I consider myself an expert. Therefore, I became the unofficial toy educator for my sorority.

In this position, I’ve had quite a bit of interesting memories. My favorite being the time when I went to the local porn store with my sorority sisters and had to educate them. We went down the line and pointed out all the vibrators which were good and the ones people should never buy. As I was doing this one of my sisters was looking at anal beads and I had to explain what they were and where they went. If you haven’t figured it out yet and weren’t paying attention they are called “Anal Beads” for a reason. I’m not shy about my experiences and will lell people what works and what doesn’t. I know way too much for my own good.