I think I’ve found the greatest love that I’ve ever had. After my last boyfriend royally skrewed me over on my last birthday I thought I would never be happy. Then he walked into my life. I never thought that I could ever feel this way. When we first met we couldn’t stand each other, he even threatened to throw me in front of a bus. Yet, the more time we spent around each other, the less annoyed we got at each other. It’s always interesting that I only wanted a one night stand and some how I was lucky enough to have a year long relationship. I wish you could see the smile that he puts on my face. He’s always there to protect me and for some reason he can always make me laugh and bring a smile to my face when I’m sad. He is my knight in shinning armor and I don’t know if he’ll ever know how I truly feel.

It was like the clash of the titans, the Ohio State University Buckeyes versus the University of Michigan Wolverines. I was in Columbus that day, walking down Lane St. and High St.,seeing nothing but red. We also had the pleasure of having two Michigan fans tagging along. It was fun blackmailing them, we could’ve yelled “Michigan Fan” and they would be thrown to the wolves. It was funny watching the game on TV and seeing a sea of red in the stadium with little islands of blue. Normally, I can’t stand football but, it was so weird, I was able to get into the game. At one point I was even yelling at the TV. The Buckeyes beat the Wolverines and the weekend continued with more football. The next game we watched was the original rivalry between the Cleveland Browns and the Pittsburgh Steelers. As usual the Steelers beat the Browns, but it was so close. What are the odds that two of Ohio’s biggest rivals were meeting on the same weekend.

Everyday women are abused verbally, emotionally, or physically and it is time that it stopped. It’s very shocking when it happens to you or someone you know. This last weekend one of my friends came to me freaked out because she was in terrible pain. It turned out that this was the second time she took the morning-after pill and this was its result. Now she is not the kind of person that would take a pregnancy scare lightly and most women start to use condoms (or some other kind of birth control) as soon as this happens. She, on the other hand, did not. This immediately sent up a red flag, so I asked her what is going on, and if she was getting raped by her boyfriend. She told me that he forces her to have sex and that he refuses to even wear condoms. THIS IS RAPE. I’ve seen the bruises on her arms and there’s nothing that I can do. I wish that I could throw the bastard in jail so that he could stop hurting her. Everyday the sick thought runs through my mind that I will get a phone call saying that she is in the hospital because he beat her. Why does this happen?

Recently, I’ve had to deal with a lot of people that pretend to be my friend but the moment my back is turned the turn on me. They say I’m a bad person and I’m fucking sick of it. I can’t stand people that will come up to me with that stupid fake “hi” or the uncomfortable hug just to cover up all the horrible things they’ve said. The part that I love the most is that they think that I’ll never hear the things they said and that we are still good friends. They never see all the nights I would lock myself in my room crying in a corner because it hurts so much. I’m a senior in college and thought that I left high school behind along time ago. Personally, I’m guilty of being fake around people but, at least I have the common sense to stop. Even if these people don’t have the sense to stop, I can be the biggest bitch you’ve ever met when I feel threatened, and they eventually do. At this point in my life I don’t have time for these childish games.

I had the biggest shock from my father because he knows more than what I thought he did. I had a TV which with a VCR player built in which I thought was broken. The only problem was that there was a porn in the VCR and I couldn’t get it out. I tried for months to get the video out of the VCR with no luck. The moment my dad touched the TV it turned on. He pulled the video out, read the title and was embarrassed for me. I was sitting on the couch and my dad came up to me and said, “I can’t think of you as my little girl anymore”. I could not believe that he found one of my movies. Now this gets even better because that very day he told me that he found one of my vibrators under the passenger seat of my car. I couldn’t believe that: one I left one of my vibrators in my car, and two: that my dad knew what a vibrator was. The sad part was that the vibrator in question doesn’t even look like a traditional vibrator, it’s the naughty gnome. I could not believe that he knew what a vibrator was or that he could even talk to be about it. I was able keep everything hidden for years. Now he knows my secret.

Recently, I traveled to Columbus to see the Red Hot Chili Peppers in concert. Personally, I heard them on the radio but never got into it; now I can’t stop listening to their music. The only complaint I have about that night was the opening band. They were terrible. They had a vocalist, bass and electric guitars, drums, and a clarinet. That’s right…a freakin clarinet. At the end of their performance they received a standing ovation because the audience wanted them off the stage. When the Red Hot Chili Peppers came out, they were unbelievable. That was one of the best concerts I have ever attended. I was dancing and moving around like a fool. I didn’t even care that the drummer decided to come out in a Michigan shirt (small problem considering the concert was at Ohio State University). The best part of the night wasn’t the band, even though it was amazing, it was the look on my boyfriend’s face; I don’t think that I have ever seen him happier. I was able to make his birthday special.

I just found the greatest vibrator in the history of vibrators “THE CONE”. This vibrator sounds absolutely amazing. The cone is hand-free devise. It’s pink and it’s cute. The best thing is that it does not even look like a vibrator. It’s a cone shape and there is no evidence that would even make it look like a traditional vibrator. The cone has 3 Volt, 3000 Rpm Gold Brush Motor, and 16 in-built settings. There is a setting which is specially made called “orgasm”. It measures 135mm (~5.25 in.) high with a diameter of 185mm (~7.25 in) and weighs a whopping 375g (13 ounces). I can’t wait to try it and when I do I’ll let everyone know about it. Check it out HERE (SFW).

Self Mutilation, Cutting, and causing yourself physical pain is a growing act that is seen throughout the world. People from all walks of life perform some way of hurting themselves and I’m one of those people. My way is not from a razor or a pin like traditional cutters, but from a finger nail clipper. Ever since the sixth grade I started biting and cutting my nail passed the skin line than ripping off the remaining nail so that my fingers and toes would start to bleed. I started cutting my nails because I could not go through with a thought of suicide. Causing myself phyical pain was the only thing that took away my emotional pain. Years later I’m still cutting and biting my nails, but there is permanently damaged to both my fingers and toes. I can’t get a manicure or a pedicure because the moment anything touches my skin it will start to bleed and I won’t even feel it. I wish that I could stop hurting myself but I can’t. The feeling, of pain, that I get after I feel after I rip off my nail replaces the depression that I was feeling. If there is anyone else in the world that is starting this act of mutilation, DON’T START. I wish that I never started.